Front cover of Outsider by Paul Cullen, paperback

Outsider : A Memoir of Survival, Family Secrets and the Search to Belong - Paul Cullen

Paul Cullen

£16.99
  • Pages · 352 pages
  • Publication Date · 19/02/2026
  • Genre · Memoirs
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A remarkable story, a real page-turner' JOE DUFFY
'Powerfully written ... a gripping narrative' FINTAN O'TOOLEThe remarkable story of one man's journey from the edge of death to the heart of a hidden past. Adopted at age three, Paul Cullen always felt like an outsider. After a near-fatal fall from Germany's highest peak in 2017 left him broken - physically and emotionally - he faced a personal reckoning. As he lay injured on the mountain, he knew that if he survived, he could no longer avoid the questions that had haunted him since childhood. What happened in those missing early years? Who cared for him before his adoption? And why was it so hard to find the truth? Outsider follows Paul's search for answers, from a mother and baby home in 1960s London to a suburban estate in 1970s Dublin, in a house lit with love but shadowed by a darker truth. As his body heals, he pieces together the fragments of his identity, confronting the silence of a closed adoption system and the emotional legacy of a hidden past. Courageous and deeply personal, Outsider is a powerful story of survival, belonging and the enduring human need to know where we come from.

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