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Am I Having Fun Now? : Anxiety, Applause and Life's Big Questions, Answered - Suzi Ruffell

Suzi Ruffell

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  • Pages · 320 pages
  • Publication Date · 28/05/2026
  • Genre · Of specific Gay & Lesbian interest
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The instant Sunday Times bestseller. 'A brave and vulnerable book by a very, very funny woman' - Joe Lycett, comedian and author of Parsnips, Buttered'A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious' - Romesh Ranganathan, comedian and author of As Good As It Gets
'Only Suzi Ruffell can take anxiety & make it funny. Relatable, hilarious & educational to boot' - Aisling Bea, comedianDoes peaking in high school ruin you for life? Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)And what - scientifically - is the best way to mend a broken heart? Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions. In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more. From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style. Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it's perfect reading for fans of books by Fern Brady, Elizabeth Day, Romesh Ranganathan, Sara Pascoe and Tom Allen.

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